I have been lucky to have for friends many dynamic women. Women who knew what they wanted to achieve in life. Some are teachers, some ride horses, some are getting their doctorates, some own and run their own businesses. But me? I'm Luann. (She's the blond on the far right.)
I never really knew what I wanted to do. In school I wanted to get good grades and graduate. That was it. I didn't have a career path in mind. It's not that I didn't think about it. I'm a planner. I like having things mapped out. But I couldn't decide what I wanted to be.
I have never been one of those people with a vocation. I thought back to what I wanted to be when I was a kid, and it changed a lot. I went from opera singer, to novelist, to photographer, to cartoonist. I even remember a spate of Olympics-inspired gymnastics; that one wore off after belly flopping into the horse a few times too many.
I'm not complaining. I have a job that I'm good at, and it pays me decently. I have a house, health insurance a 401K and a cat. I'm just restless I guess.
Is this it?
Friday angst video
Oooh, I've had this feeling. It was what prompted my major soul-searching and the beginning of my more robust goal setting processes. What I want out of life is still evolving, as I figure it must for everyone, but at least I don't feel quite as aimless as I did.
ReplyDeleteFor me, it helped to sit down and think about what I'd feel would have made my life a good life, when all is said and done: What types of experiences, what type of work, what types of activities, and what types of friends/people.
Of course, I still have moments of panic, wherein life seems less amazing than it's supposed to be and I feel listless. Do all people go through this, or is it just the more introspective among us? Hm.
Leslie
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